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Impossible and forbidden

I'll wait patiently for thing I want. I already got some of the things that I want. I still can't get the thing that I want the most. So, wait is the only thing I can do.

I start to feel uneasy if I don't get back the reply on time. But once I got it, even just one, I feel relieved and satisfied. I feel happy if I get back more. It makes me smile even I just think about it. It brightens up my day and it gives me hope.

I guess I know why these things happen, but I don't want it to happens, somehow. Probably because I know it is not really possible. The possibility for it to happens is about 10 percent only. Or maybe even 5. If it really will happens, I guess it is a forbidden thing to happens...Now, I just want to know the feeling first.

PS: I think I'm a coward. I'm afraid to confess if I have a crush on someone, even to a close friend. I have to overcome my fear and be bolder :)

Holiday

HELLO!

I'm back from NS for 3 days :)

Well, NS isn't THAT bad actually. It was quite fun, indeed, although it is very tiring because the road back to my dorm and to padang kawad is very sloppy and long that my leg almost break every time I go these places and the sun is blazing hot in the afternoon that my skin has darkenned a lot. 

The food really sucks, well, sometimes. Sometimes I'm so sick of it and I just buy some food from mini market to eat instead of eating their food.

The activity is quite messy now since it's just 2 weeks, but I've learnt marching, canoeing and having character building class. PK class is my favorite activity because it is indoor :)

That's all for now. Will update about it more when I come back.

Ciao!

Hello people :)

I won't be in Penang for at least 1 week, at most 2 weeks. Why?

Because I'm going to the stupid f***ing NS @!#$%^&*

Why only 1 to 2 weeks? Because I'm coming back when my college starts :D

I really hope I can meet some NICE people right away and get along well with her. I hope my time will flies damn fast at there and I hope everything is going well. Wish me luck :)

In case you wonder which camp I am going, I am going to Kulim's.

Results.

I can't believe, really, that I'll get this kind of result. 

Although I've expected it (I was just expecting for the worst), I was, still am, in shock. I can't believe for a minute that I'll get...for Moral and History! The questions for those papers were sort of easy and I could really do it. And I know the rules in answering Moral questions. I feel the urge to ask for remark my Moral and History papers. Btw, don't get me wrong. I DID NOT fail or get C or D for that subjects. Otherwise I would just hang myself. I did not get D for any subjects, for that matter.

Anyway, I still can't believe I got....well, it's pure embarassing. There are As, of course, but I still feel like a crap now. I will not disclose my results, so ask me if you REALLY wanna know. However, I'm quite happy with my Add Math because I thought I will get C :)

Overall, I'm not proud with my result, at all

One Day Away from Boredom.

I had so much fun yesterday. Went to Camellia's before 9am and walked to McDonald's to have breakfast :D I really love the hash browns from McD. I had Fillet-O Fish, she had Big Breakfast and we shared two pancakes. I really LOVE their Fillet-O Fish. The softness of the buns and the tenderness of the fillet with the sourness of the mayonnaise are SCRUMPTIOUS. As for the pancakes, not THAT bad, still edible, but the maple syrup was a little bit too sweet. I wish I could have breakfast from McD every day until I am  sick of it. LOL.

After breakfast, we went to buy some groceries at a nearby supermarket to prepare our lunch. We planned to eat pasta, so we bought things we need to cook pasta and some other things. I bought a big tub of yogurt and she bought some frozen food. We walked back to her house at 11a.m

We both thought her internet can be use on my laptop, but unfortunately it couldn't. Her modem is somewhat different from mine. So we gave up trying and she played offline games on my laptop and I watched Camp Rock on her TV after watching Keeping Up the Kardashians. That movie is not my cup of tea. I don't like it and the songs were not my type, either. After finished watching Camp Rock, we cooked our lunch at 2pm and finished it by 3pm. 

After lunch, we continue our activities. When his brother came back home from school, we played PS2. I got hooked on it, really. I suck at it at first, but after a few rounds I'm kind of a pro :P They got annoyed by my screaming because I scream when I won and I curse when I lost :D I had so much fun where I've totally forgotten everything in my mind. So yeah, it was awesome.

FYI, I'm very glad my parents aren't like their parents. Their parents are really strict. Camellia and I skipped dinner because we were really full since after lunch. So we watched Georgia Rule on HBO and 90210. Her dad wanted to watch the TV before 90210 ends, so we had to compromise with him. I have no problem with that because I've watched it online until episode 16. So we went downstairs and she taught her brother Geography and Math because he is having exam. I went  back at 10.30pm.

Result

SPM result: 12th of March 2009.

I am nervous.

I am freaking out.

I am excited.

I am scare.

It's true that I want to get my result on school day so that I can meet all the teachers but, if I get bad result, what would the students especially the 5 Mawar students? They were like, what, our enemies. Were trying so hard to outshine my class *scoff*. So am I supposed to be excited or afraid? If I get a really good result, then it's a good thing. Pretty damn good, indeed. I can shut them up and make my teachers proud of me. How I wish I can get at least 7As.

My life depends on the damn result. I can't imagine how dissapointed I will get if I don't get at least 7As or 6As. I believe getting a good result in SPM can change one's life :)

Oh well.

Movie, food, what else?

ONE WORD: SUCKS.

I went to watch this crap yesterday with my sister. If it wasn't Brad Pitt, I would say it is one the worst movies I've ever watched. The film wasn't in a good condition because the sound system sucks (imagine speakers on the left almost spoilt) and the many parts of the movie were cut because of the stupid censor. The only thing worth watching is Brad Pitt because he was really hilarious in this movie. But, I can't believe he died in the end! I wouldn't say he is lead actor because he had a very few scenes in it. Oh I can't believe, even now, that Brad Pitt accepted this movie!

Let's not talk about the movie. We talk about the number of people in the auditorium. You will never guess it because there was only SEVEN PEOPLE including both of us in the auditorium, for God's sake! Plus, there was this psycho woman laughing at every single thing that wasn't funny at all. I can say she was the only person laughing so loudly that a three-year-old kid would thought she was a monster. She even brought her lunch/dinner that most probably bought from some coffee shop because it used the polystyrene box as the container. Had she lost her mind, I wondered? I am glad that we weren't sitting at the same row with her. I can't stand the smell coming from her food. Not that it was, you know, smelly or what but, it was an air-conditioned room. Food tend to smells awful in an air-conditioned no matter how great it smells in open-air.

I shall stop complaining. 

So, after watching that crap,  I went to buy Slumdog Millionaire DVD (I love the movie, It deserved to get Best Picture). Then we went to Cold Storage to see something. As I always said, seeing things lead to buying things in Gurney and I get tempted too easily. I bought Mozzarella Sticks from T.G.I Friday, Pop Tarts, Nougat and an Energy Bar while my sister bought chocolates from Belgian, a box of four energy bars, a bottle of juice and a jar of jam. The total amount was very surprising and I shall not say it out ;) The reasons of me buying all these stuffs because I want to eat and I feel that I should reward myself every once in a while. LOL. After that I bought waffles for dinner and I love the chocolate pretzel from Aunty Annie's :DD

Anyway, I want you to watch this musical, the performance in Oscars 2009, by Beyonce, Hugh Jackman, Zac Efron, Vanessa Hudgens and Amanda Seyfriend. I love it :)

Top 12 glass is half-full.

I.AM.GLAD

VERY GLAD, INDEED.

I am so happy because that retarded Nick Mitchell did not make it to Top 12. No offence to his lover, though :) I just hate him to the core. I smile even just thinking of the next episode because I don't have to see him again.

Second, I was restraining myself from screaming - otherwise my family would think that I've gone mad - when Ryan Seacrest said "the American voted...Allison Iraheta" and "Adam Lambert." Note: That wasn't what he exactly said.

I can't wait for Group 3 this week although I don't have any favorites, yet :)

PS: Ryan Seacrest is kind of, hot? I like his smile and eyes :)

Cheating?

I can't believe newspaper was lying. 

On Sunday, The Stars has written very cleary that on Monday at 8p.m. on Star World will have primetime encore of 81st Annual Academy Awards. At 8p.m., I tuned into Star World and the show it was playing is Friends. I thought maybe there was some mistakes during printing, so I tuned back again at 9p.m.. The show it was playing is Samantha Who? Obviously it wasn't gonna repeat on Star World.

Now, I'm checking again on Astro website and it is really written there:

Title: 81st Annual Academy Awards

Time: 8:30p.m.

Date: 23-Feb-2009

Channel: Star World

Duration: 4:00

So, what happened? I'm really frustrated because the website and the newspapers were giving false information. Or is it the broadcaster's or channel's problem?

Oscars

OH. MY. GOD!

Robert Pattinson was absolutely GORGEOUS in his new hair and the tux.

He was presenting an award together with Amanda Seyfried from Mamma Mia! in the 81st Academy Awards (or better known as Oscars)

If I'm not mistaken, they were presenting something called Romance in 2008 Montage.

CLICK HERE to watch their presentation.

or

CLICK HERE to watch him at the red carpet and HERE to watch his interview with Ryan Seacrest.

I am so gonna watch it tonight at 8p.m. on Star World :DDD (To be perfectly honest, I'm watching the oh-so-boring Oscars because of him and Zac Efron. Okay, and to see who's the winners that I don't really care about)

PS: You might be saying "Eww" or giving whatever nasty comments on him but, I don't give a damn, and you know it. You hate him because he's hotter than the one you're crushing, period :)

Competition

When he called out the names of the people that I hoped they will get through,

my heart was beating so fast like it could came out of my chest at any moment. My fingers were intertwined and I kept on saying 'pleaseee' to myself (or maybe God) to let my favorite get through and my non-favorite don't get through.

Well, my prayer wasn't really answered. Some of my favorites did not go through but some did.

I'm really, really glad that that Casey Carlson and Stephen Fowler did NOT make it to Top 12 of American Idol. That Casey Carlson is so Vanessa Hudgens-ish especially her voice, her eyes and the way she smiles. In case you didn't notice, she's of the same age as Vanessa Hudgens too. As for Stephen Fowler, I don't like because of his face. I know it is very unfair to say like that, but I really don't like his face. Sorry, no offence. So, I am happy because Alexis Grace and Danny Gokey has made it into Top 12.

But, I'm quite dissapointed because Jackie Tohn can't make it to Top 12. She has a really nice voice, to me. I know many people (me also) don't like (or some, hate) Tatiana Del Toro because of her goose bumping-and-annoying laughter but, she can sings. Not very well, but not very bad. I read The Stars newspaper the day before yesterday and I came across this article about American Idol. The writer said that the Danny Gokey guy has the Archuleta-effect on the her (or him). I don't totally disagree on that point but, he does not have that effect on me, at least. Instead, he has the David Cook's eyes, don't you think? Hahaha.

By the way, I don't really like the way they choose the Top 12 finalist. They shouldn't have let the people but the judges to choose because, excuse me for me saying this, what do the people know what's good and what's not? I am sure at least 85% of the audiences are teenagers. They will be sort of bias when it comes to voting. Some, not all, will choose them based on the contestants' look (like me). If they like that particular person, he or she will votes like hundred times. So, I think that the finalist should be chosen by the judges and not by the people. If the people do the elimination job, then what's the point of having judges in first place?

Anyway, now I'm hoping that trying-to-be-funny-but-ended-up-looking-retarded or in short, gay-ish guy called Nick Mitchell will NOT make it into Top 12. Otherwise, I will jump out from the window. He looks damn retarted and stupid in the shorts and freaking red shirts. Eww! Again, no offence. I hate him since the first time I saw him during the audition. He shouldn't make it to Top 12 although he can sings because, to me, an American Idol should be able to sing, of course, and look GREAT. Not some kind of retard.

PS: You see why I said teens are not the best judge on what's good and what's not? Even myself don't like that guy because he looks retarded although he can sings.

Apology

I know I've abandon my blog for quite some time. 

I have things to update, not that I don't have.

But I'm really lazy, or a better word; don't have mood, to blog.

So, I guess I'll update by this week

Sorry :)

Story

I AM DAMN BORING.

AND DUBIOUS.

I am boring because I have nothing to do since after CNY holidays. I am boring RIGHT NOW because I suddenly have no idea what to do. Nobody is onlining, I am boring with the same old songs I keep on listening every stinking day, I am boring because I am BORING. Okay, the last one was really stupid :)

I am dubious because I can't decide which book to buy FIRST. Here is the list of books I feel like reading right this moment:

- The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks

- A Walk To Remember by Nicholas Sparks

- Interview With The Vampire by Anne Rice

- For One More Day by Mitch Albom

I bought the wrong book the other day. It was Thanks For The Memories by Cecelia Ahern. I'm not saying it's not good, but I somehow find that it is kind of boring and absurd :/ Just so you know, I still have two unread books bought by my sister. One from KL entitled What's Your Reason for Bad Behaviour (I guess) and another one from BORDERS calld The Chocolate Run...I wanna read the books I mentioned before first, though :)

Btw, CNY is over :'(

Celebration

It is the tenth day of Chinese New Year. Everything has gone back to the normal. During CNY, my family would have a break for six days. I missed CNY.

On CNY Eve, I helped my family to prepare things - fruits, foods, chicken, roasted duck, roasted, pork praying materials, etc - for prayer and pray in the morning. After that, my sister helped to slice the chicken, duck and pork to pray our deceased ancestor. It was her first time doing that, so I find it very funny; unlike the others apart from me, she looked quite unprofessional. After we've finished and completed everything, my sister and I went to Sunshine Farlim Hypermarket to buy something. I bumped into Zaza, and apparently she's working there.

At night, as everyone did it, we had reunion dinner. The dishes we had were, of course, awesome and delicious especially the soup (salted vegetable with duck) and the prawns (cooked in thick soy sauce with chili and celery). The prawns were really BIG and those two dishes are cook during CNY only. After dinner, we rested for a while while my dad and uncle put up the last minutes CNY decorations and my sister and I painted our nails - I painted my nails red. At 12a.m we started to pray again and we counted down with the live show from HK on Astro (sounds stupid, isn't it?). After that, we -my parents, my sister and my uncle - dressed in our new clothes, new shoes to go out and pray at several temples. My grandma and aunt did not follow us because it was too late, for them. If you're thinking there must be not many or no people, then you're very wrong. Almost every single temple in Penang is crowded with people. We went to 5 temples and went back at 4a.m. Well, I don't find it tiring because we're doing this once a year only, so it's kind of exciting for staying up so late to go somewhere.

There wasn't much going on on the first day of CNY since we'd prayed during CNY Eve, technically. We woke up pretty late - 10-ish. My cousin and cousin in-law went to our house before we went out at 12-ish with their kids. At 2-ish, we - my parents, sister, uncle and grandma - went to our aunt's house in Jelutong - Mutiara Heights. I spent my time at there eating and watching TV while my sister and dad gambled with my another cousin, aunt and my cousin in-law. Something happened when we were having fun. Something that made us alerted and put us in a shock. Apparently, one of the lots on sixth floor was on fire. Of course we did not evacuate or ran down. I saw quite a lot of smokes coming from upper floor before we knew it was fire but I thought people were just praying so I didn't care about it. So, the incident broke everything was going on off and we went back at 6-ish.

We had our dinner at 7-ish and then we - my parents, sister and I only- went to Hydro Majestic Hotel (somewhere between Batu Ferringhi and Tanjung Bungah) to visit my mom's side family. They are my relatives of course. I don't even recognize or haven't even seen some of them before. Quite boring sitting at there. They were doing all the most of the talking with my mom only. One of my aunt gave my sister and I some red wine to drink, so we just toast with her and the rest. My dad said no to them because he had to drive and he's not a very good drinker :) Well, apparently I'm not a very good drinker either. I can feel my heart beats accelerate and my face, my body are hot after several glasses. To be honest, I've never thought I would drunk because I knew I won't get drunk so easily. My mom even noticed my face went red. But, my aunt keep pouring for me so I forced myself to finish it. At 10.30p.m., we wanted to go back already because my dad's friend was coming to our house so we went down but one of my aunt, came back from Australia, followed us and dragged us to the lounge in the hotel to have a few drinks, again. Since my dad's friend hasn't reached yet and this is the only time we get to meet with them, so we just went with the flow. We sat down and listened to the girls singing and then my mom's brother ordered a bucket of beer. He made us drink with him again, but I said no although I don't want to because I really can't take it anymore. I can feel my heart coming out from my chest at any time. After a while, I saw a dart board across the room, so I asked my sister and dad to play since I've never tried before. Well, I'm really sucked at it. It looked easy to play in the movie but when I play it myself, it was very difficult to hit the centre point. I even threw the dart outside the board and on the floor accidentally. Well, not only me exactly. My sister too :P But my dad was better than us both. It was really very embarrassing. Luckily there wasn't many people in the lounge bar :P After a few rounds, we went back to our table and my uncle forced my sister to drinks again. They ordered a few buckets and kept filling my sister's glass and asked her to toasted with my aunt, cousin and uncle, so she was forced to drink to not let them down. She was a good drinker, like my mom. Obviously, I inherited my dad's can't-really-drink genes. Like wth? LOL. One of the singing girl invited my mom's brother to go out and sing. It was a spur-of-the moment thing. So he just went out and sing a Chinese song. After a few minutes, we managed to escape from their remand :D It was really fun and exciting hanging out with them at the lounge. Their hotel room is quite lovely actually. We reached home at almost 12 a.m.

At 12-ish, my dad's friend finally came to our house to play mahjong. He played with my dad and my sister. I don't really know how to play mahjong. Sadly, none of my family wants to teach me :/ I just sat on the couch and watch Friends. I fell asleep after one episode. I woke up in the middle of the sleep because they were so noisy and I heard my uncle teased me. They were laughing at me and I went back to my sleep after that, I didn't care.

I didn't go anywhere on the second day of CNY. We prayed in the morning and this prayer means the new year has 'unlocked'. After lunch, my dad and my uncle went to Turf Club with my cousin to watch the horse racing. My sister, a mahjong addict, played again with my cousin sister and aunt (I have many cousins and aunts). After they went back, we had our dinner and went to Kek Lok Si at 9-ish. We go there every year and prefer going there at night because the scene is nicer with all the lightings and cooler without the blazing hot sunlight. We spend a good few hours at they and went back at 12-ish.

I stayed at home the whole day on the third day but I did went out at night. My sister asked me whether I wanna watch All's Well End's Well in Gurney or not but I made a very stupid and wrong decision because I said no. I said no because she said she's going with our cousin, so I thought we're going to watch with her together. They're quite close and talk about almost everything, so if I go, I'll be like an idiot following them. Regret, regret, regret! But, my sister still went to her boss's house so she wasn't with us until night. My uncle told us there's a CNY Open House at night at Campbell Street, so we went there. Apparently, it was on the fourth day, 29th of January instead of 28th of January. Sigh! Since we already went out, we went to shopping.

On the fourth day, I went out from afternoon until night. We went to pray at a temple in Tanjung Tokong and Snake Temple in Bayan Lepas (we did a lot of praying during CNY). You see, Tanjung Tokong and Bayan Lepas - like traveling from one end of Penang to the other end. I like it because I like long journey :D After praying in Snake's Temple, we went to Campbell Street for the CNY Open House. It was damn crowded and I literally had to duck around and push other people to go somewhere. At 6.45p.m. some children performed a mini dragon dance. It was really funny. Just so you know, I was standing in front of a stove where people baking loveletters. Can you imagine how hot do I felt? Not only that, my legs were screaming in pain, no thanks to my stupid peep-toe pump. Maybe it's still new, so it's quite tight. So, I went to meet my aunt and grandma to find a place to sit. Much to my dismay, there's no place. my sister and I went to the nearby bus station to sit for at least fourty five minutes. We bumped into aunt's friend with her family at there. What a coincidence. I even went to 7-11 to buy Galaxie to read while waiting for the lion dance to start at 8p.m. So when it started, we went across the street to get a better view. Well, quite awesome and amazing especially when they jumped from one pole to another. Read the Stars paper for more details. During the performance, our CM arrived and every cars had to give way to his car. His car was black and the window was covered.

When the perfomance finished, we went off to dinner at New World Park. After finished our dinner, we went to some acrobatic performance at the stage there. When it finished, we finally went home. It was very, very tiring day but I slept at 1-ish though.

I stayed at home from morning until night on the fifth day except my sister, went out with friend and my dad went to Turf Club again. The most boring day...

As I mentioned earlier, my parents went back to work on the sixth day, so didn't go anyway obviously. On the seventh day, just went out for lunch and pray at Jade Emperor's Temple at Penang Hill. On the eighth day night, I'm sure you'll know what I did with my family if you're a Chinese. We celebrated the Jade Emperor's birthday by offering many, many things. The apartment that we live in even had lion dance and burned fire crackers and fireworks. It was really fun. However, we're not Hokkien, so we didn't celebrated it conventionally.

I miss the days I had fun. And this is the longest post I've ever posted :)

Goodbye

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :D

It's CNY Eve right now. I just wish this moment can be stopped for as long as I want to because to me, CNY Eve is the best :D This is when I feel extra excited because CNY is tomorrow. It sounds stupid, doesn't it? Anyway, I'm anticipating for reunion dinner and everything's going on after that.

Btw, no updates until next week. See you guys next week :D

Have a very nice holidays and New Year (for Chinese)

Time of the Year

In case you didn't know already, I am so in the CNY mood :D

One more day, man. Well uhm, I consider CNY Eve as CNY as well ;)

I'm trying really hard to not think about my future just yet. I'm really happy at this moment. Like enjoying my life to the max :D This year's CNY is sort of different to me. No more wishes from classmates and teachers, no teasings from friends like "where is my red packets??!" or discussion with friends like "how many clothes have you bought? What is it like?" or after-CNY discussion like "where did you go? How many red packets did you get?" (I really missed all that), no more feeling excited when school ends, which marks the day of CNY is coming closer, no more feeling sad when school reopen, which reminds me that the day of CNY is almost coming to an end anddd no more homeworks or school stuffs to worry about during CNY (of course I like the last part).

Well, I know everything will comes to an end. So, there is no point keep on reminiscing. But it's okay to recall it every once in a while, though, isn't it? :)

Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year to you too, if you celebrate or are chinese. Wish you have a very good year :D

Future

Mystery revealed.

Apparently, the 'thing' that PTPL College wanted to send to me was an offering to some courses. The only courses that caught my eyes were GCE A-Levels (for Art and Science) and Bachelor in Law (2+1) - Northumbria University . It's one of my wishes to study A-Level, Law and enter PTPL

Surprisingly, I wasn't that excited. It was as if I already know what it was, as if I don't like what they offer to me. I guess it was because I knew my parents won't allow me to accept it because they want me to go Form 6. Actually, I have no problem with both. I can go college as well as Form 6. Just that I want college a little more than Form 6.

I haven't let them know I've got that. Just aren't prepared yet. But I certainly will let them know before CNY, I guess.

Moving on, I saw this article from E! Online about New Moon. They said Dakota Fanning might be Jane. She looks quite lovely, so I won't go against it. The only thing I'll go against is Vanessa Hudgens as Leah and thankfully, she will not :DDD

Idiot

Hey there :) You are right. I changed my layout. I'm not really satisfied with this one, but I'm bored with the old one, so yeah, whatever.

I did some sort of stupid thing recently. I put off reading Breaking Dawn deliberately simply because I didn't want the story to end so quickly. I'd stopped reading that book for 3 days, at least. It sounds really stupid and silly and naive. Thinking that if I don't read any further, the story will not end *scoff*. But, I'm determine to finish it by tonight. I wanna re-read New Moon because I don' really remember every single thing in details as much as I do in Twilight. Maybe because I'd watched the movie, so I had a better image in my head.

Oh by the way, 3 more days to CNY Eve!!!! 3 days, babe, THREE DAYS!!! I can't wait for it :DDD

Some people are getting on my nerve. They are not updating their blog. Oh well...

I had a very, very stupid and yet frightening dream last night. I dreamt I got my SPM result and guess what, I got 5A's ONLY. It shocked the hell out of me! That was the frightening part where I'm hoping it IS NOT true. The very, very stupid part? We got a paper from the government written down the grades and the MARKS for each subject, then we total up the amount of As we've got. Grade B and below were not taken into consideration, meaning those subject with B, C and so on can be ignored, and I have no idea why. The whole dream was very vague. I don't really understand what was going on. All I'm able to remember is my horrible result and the stupid paper which doesn't make any sense at all in real life. After that, my mom called my name to wake me up and I'm half conscious :/

Sometimes it is great to live in a fantasy world, sometimes it is really awful to in that world. I once told myself that, living in a fantasy world is really wonderful. I shall elaborate that on my next post.

Anyway, CNY is less than two weeks!!!! And btw, I was taken aback when PTPL College called me yesterday. She said they (the college) are sending something to me and I wonder what is that?

Off to lunch, people. BYE!!

I feel stronger. It is not a physical strength, but an emotional strength. I should thank 'you' for this. For making me stronger. For making my life better than ever.

By the way, I've found and got the font Stephenie Meyer used for the books cover (Twilight font). It took me like forever to download that. Not only that, I got the font she used for Edward's, Bella's and Alice's handwriting (I have the mongrel's writing as well but I don't want to use) :D You might not believe me, I know that. Here's the prove ;)

You also might don't feel surprised because you've had it. Oh well. This is for those who hadn't have yet. Have a look and ASK me from where and how did I get it, if you're lazy to Google it :)

I'm almost done with Breaking Dawn. I'm up to Book Three. No doubt, I really don't want the story to ends :( Well, as the reading is progressing, I hate to admit that I found that Jacob Black is actually very nice. You have to read Breaking Dawn to realize it, that is for me. Most of you already fell in love with the mongrel in New Moon *grimace*. But I still don't like him, though :D I'm not gonna choose Team Jacob over Team Edward. This will never, ever happen. Edward is incomparable, irreplaceable. He is one of a kind. Period ;)

P.S.: Allow me to say extravagantly how wonderful, how perfect Edward is. I just can't help myself doing that. If you find it annoying and irritating, you may not come back again anymore :)

Hello :)

Two more weeks to Chinese New Year!!!!

I realized every thing happens really fast. I feel I'd just celebrated CNY two months ago. If time will stops for a few minutes...

So, this is the time of the year where you'll see many places have decorated with all those CNY decorations, playing CNY songs every where and I'm getting really boring every year with the same old songs. I can feel some kind of spirit in me when I saw those decorations, like the CNY spirit, the urge to celebrate it right away.

CNY is one of my favorite holidays and days apart from Christmas, though I don't really celebrate it, and my birthday, of course :D

To me, CNY eve is the best day during CNY because...I don't know how to explain to you, but I think it is so. Maybe you'll understand better if you DO celebrate CNY, conventionally :)

By the way, I'd passed my car theory test. Woohoo!!!! Maybe you'll say "it wasn't that difficult, was it?" but still. I was really scare I'd fail because I can't stand sitting in a 'chill' room for 5 hours to listen the whole lecture thing again, not to mention paying 40 bucks to re-sit the exam. My mom would strangle me to death if I'd failed. Okay, that was dramatic :D I can't wait to get my driving licence so that I can go WHEREVER I want to!!!!

Did I mention I dyed my hair? Well, yes. I dyed my hair golden brown. Wanna have a look? Warning: The color will not be very obvious unless I took my photo under the sunlight :)

I'm going to sit that theory test tomorrow.

Wish me luck ;)

I CANNOT fail. If I failed, I'll die.

In case you can't read the words, it says

"If I could dream at all, it would be about you. And I'm not ashamed of it"

This is the LOVE ♥ that I want for my entire life t0 last forever.

If you're smart, you'll know where I got them from and who said those words :)

I'm posting this to share something with you :DD

A perfume inspired by TWILIGHT!!!! The website or the manufacturer or whatever it is claimed that it smells like Bella Swan's scent ;)

I guess it's selling in US already. It costs $48, equivalent to RM168++ Quite cheap, isn't it?

I wonder will they sell it in Malaysia. You know, Malaysia is...right? LOL

But I really hope Malaysia will have it sooner or later. I certainly will buy, I guess? Hahaha.

It's 11.18a.m.. I wonder what my still-studying friends and teachers doing now...I wish I was there like I'm still studying at there.

I really am not used to it. So not used to it. For the past 11 years, I went to school once the school reopen, but this year I don't have to anymore. I stay at here online-ing, blogging and doing boring stuffs. I feel like wanna smack those hate-school-more-than-anything dorks and say come here and exchange your position with mine. You sit here and play while I go to school for YOU. Deal? Damn it, I know I can't.

I know I should stop ranting. Otherwise even my most devoted readers will stop reading. I wonder is there any in the first place :P

Went to Gurney again yesterday with my sister. Even I'm boring already, not to mention you. I'd rather go Queensbay more often. We went there because my sister had RM60 voucher to use by yesterday, so yeah. She bought a purse from ELLE. Quite lovely but I prefer the one from Paris Hilton. Btw, Paris Hilton's bags and purses are really nice. I saw a few bags from Baby Phat by Kimora Lee Simmons as well. Spotted a really fabulous one. It costs RM300++ :O

RM169. Left one only :)

I bought a pair of pearl earrings (fake one of course) for RM15.90 but I saw the exactly same one from another store for RM9.90 only. I am so rankle! @!#$%^&* Went to MPH to check out Life & Style. I can't find the issue I wanted. Rankled again...Bought the latest one instead. Life & Style is very proficient. Every single issue as in every week has something to do with Twilight. But I'm not THAT stupid to buy every single issue ;) Each issue costs RM12.90 man. But Life & Style is a really great magazine.

So, we went back at 9.50p.m.. As I said before, going Gurney means spending money. I just can't help it. I must have something to buy every time I go there.

I went to Gurney, again, yesterday. But this time, I went with my family to do my CNY shopping :)

It was really GREAT and FANTASTIC. I was the one who've bought the most things.

I (my mom paid for everything actually) got myself one pink top from Esprit and another black one from Padini (P&CO to be exact) and a brown, metallic peep-toe pump from Vincci, while my mom just got herself one heel from Vincci. Of course, I was really happy for getting all those stuffs, but I'm happier for getting my Eclipse and Breaking Dawn books, which I've ordered (and waited) for two weeks!!! I cannot get any happier than I already was :D The only thing that made me disappointed was Twilight DVD has not came out yet :| You know what, my dad found out that the books were expensive and he gave me back RM50. A BIG thanks from the bottom of my heart to mom and dad and sister (she bought Eclipse for me). How could I be unhappy when I don't have to pay to get almost everything I want?! Sometimes I do feel grateful x)

A PROUD owner of them :D

After all the shoppings and everything, I went to MPH to check out Life & Style (Dec 23rd's issue) but they don't have it yet. Read other magazines with Twilight things instead. I like MPH because I don't have to buy the whole thing just to read some articles. I can ask the workers there to unwrap the magazine and read for as long as I want. After that, went to Cold Storage. Finally, I found the licorice but it costs RM9.99 :O Wanted to buy but was afraid it doesn't taste good or too sweet. It smells great though. Maybe will buy it on Sunday because my sister wants to use her voucher. It's always easier to shop when my parents aren't around because although I buy something pricey, they wouldn't know and they won't nag but the advantage is, they might pay for me for the things I buy ;) After that, went to buy ice-cream for me and my parents from the McD kiosk while sister bought green tea ice-cream from other store. I had the limited edition Orange McFlurry. It tasted alright at first but it gets bitter after a while. My mom helped me to finished it. Otherwise I won't have place for KFC because I had KFC for dinner. Bought it from the one near Jalan Larut (beside Giant at Penang Plaza, in case you know where the hell is there). I like that place because it is very cozy, and classy :D

School reopen on Monday! Yayy!!!!

Nahh, not that it has anything to do with me. I'm just happy and cheering for those who is still studying. Appreciate it and be happy because you are still in high school (or primary school) because school life is WAY, WAY better than after-school life. It sucks! Believe me. You're gonna miss every single thing you've done in school when you're out.

I don't understand why I whined about going back to school after holidays when I was going to Form 5 (and 4). I used to complain to my friends like "Ugh!!! I hate it! We're going back to school on blah, blah, blah. I wish I can extend the holidays a bit longer" and when I was going up to Form 5 I said "Heyyyy! I don't want to go to school on blah, blah, blah! I'm going to face a very stressful life. SPM!!! I wanna skip school *pout*" I feel very stupid for saying those craps now x)

I want to know who's going to my school this year. I really like it to see new students and new juniors in my school :D I don't know why. I miss the first day of school in the beginning of the year. We don't have to study on that day, we will be busy electing new class monitor, monitor and other simple posts, dying to know our new timetables, who's teaching that particular subject, choosing our partner in class, rushing to class so we can get our favorite place :D and later on, choosing our extra-curricular activities. There's a lot of things to expect apart from that. I always hope for a new canteen operator every year, then dying to know who's the top scorer in PMR. ROFL! I always like the first week of school especially the first assembly. The discipline teacher will be extra strict and keep on checking our name tag, school badge, finger nails and everything in the first few weeks. I don't really have to worry because I hardly break school rules (except keeping my nails long) in the beginning of the year but when school is almost end like in mid-September, it's time for me to go a little bit wild x) Ohh! And I enjoy queuing up for like half the day at bookshop (or koperasi) to buy books :P

I used to HATE all those things and scenarios but now, I like it. I hope I could go through all those things again this year but no, I know I can't :/